attack of the 50 feet moral conscience!

ok, fine. fine! *bitter*

i started selling dvds. i needed the money. i was quite proud that im venturing into entrepreneurship and acutally thinking about my future. however, selling dvds is not the way to go because the dvds, well, are not accepted by some people. (i am not going into details, for my own protection. it is better for me for you to draw the wrong conclusion than actually know the truth. ahaha)

i hate this. *bitter*

it didnt start that way. i did start to recieve orders and promote. for some reason the attack of the 50 feet conscience did reveal itself until, i was actually getting more orders. well, let just say, i stopped. the "consequences" is to big to ignore.

money. *bitter*

does this mean that i will suck at entrepreneurship when i entertain thoughts regarding morals and ethics? i don't think so. i may not become rich as some people are, but i know i will be better for it.

damn. *bitter*

the bad effects will soon outweigh the good effects.

this happened when i was driving alone to pick up my sister from school. damn, introspection. anyway, i started to think about what I'm doing. well, i tried to fight for those of you who is mad at me. I'm sorry. i will make money. you'll see. but not that the way where i might possibly ruin my future. what for? couple of thousand?

I'm reading a book right now by David Loy for my Philosophy class. He stated that man's main problem is not the fear or the lack of death as psychoanalysts and existentialist suggest but rather, man's fear is the "annihilation of all possibilities" (which will be a topic of my next blog). the way i see it, what i was or want to be doing does not open up opportunities but rather creating conclusions. conclusions that i always fear.

to not become everything i want to be. *fear*

it is time for me to fear.

THE ATTACK OF THE 50 FEET MORAL CONSCIENCE.