Colorful World

It is so unfair that when you finally met someone you truly want to fall in love with and who is more than willing to catch you, they then needs to leave.


It is so not fair.


People say, maybe he is not the one. Maybe you will see him again. Maybe this is a test of your feelings. If so, one thing strikes, does he feel the same way. Only way for any of this is true if we both feel the same way. Otherwise, its suicide.

Why colorful world?

Cause it is my first great love (cheers!). i see and feel things around me in a more colorful way. I realize now how my people cant eat after a break up or why they need to be rushed to the hospital after taking pills and drinking past their limit... its not that i approve or am saying that it is normal but, i now understand why people go through that.

is that his purpose in my life? for me to feel love in the right amount, to make me dream and not bitter?

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Justine Castillo is a Filipina currently living in her home country. She uses this blog to punish herself by revisiting and rethinking her past experiences. Still she continues to blog because she believes that her words someday will be worth Millions. Also, she is a self-confessed megalomaniac.

belgian waffles...

it is amazing how thoughts on relationship, love and loneliness can bring two people together from different sides of the planet. I dont usually meet men who likes to talk unless they are lonely and fishing for complements.

...or maybe he is just a mythical being who is really romantic. then again, it is so easy to be with someone who just had his heart broken, you just need to be everything his girlfriend was not (bitch!).

Loneliness

loneliness looms over you like an addiction
you try hard to get over it but emotions can run wild
emotions that controls you
you look around and see people
people you dont understand, people you dont want to talk to you
yet they see you, talk to you

loneliness eats you up until you are none

Things I Want to Do this Semestral Break

1. Go to tagaytay, alone. Eat Breakfast at McDonalds, have morning tea at Starbucks, Read a Book and Take Pictures. - Cost P700 (how much will the taxi cost? and can i take a taxi to and from tagaytay?)
2. Finish 3 Books
3. Write a Short Story
4. Live Alone, maybe rent a room for a night. Cost (P1500)
5. learn to drive a stick shift


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so far that is it. hahaha... oh! wait, i only have four (4) weeks to do this and work on my thesis. KAYA! time management. :)