the dating world

so many signals.
we try to make it clear.
it difficult as we are also not clear.

people treat you bad.
treat you without respect
longs for your body and nothing else

you try to care
to give respect
to earn respect...
but the game goes on.

it goes on so badly..
your eyes well up
I just want to love.

how can i let go
when the mere memory of you
reminds me of what love is like
what love should be
how dating should be.

wink is just a wink.
playing is just playing
but love is never just love

i cant quite put my feelings into words
its like the world is slowing sucking me dry
everywhere i go.. people are treating each other badly

everything is so easy.
everything is temporary.

i dont just want your body.
i dont want your money
i dont want your eyes
i just want you.

What Color Eyes do you Have?

***Brown eyes***

People with brown eyes are very attractive, adorable, love to make new friends. Will do anything for that special person. Kind and polite Can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. They love to please the one they care or love for, and are the greatest kissers of all. You care deeply for family and are affectionate with a

yes i will.
and
yes i do eventhough i dont show it.

A lovely Day Out

I went to my favorite mall in the city today, after 3 months of just being at home or in school. It was certainly a lovely day.

I was surprised to see the new wing of the mall to be up. Like the rest of the mall, its interior is European influenced but this new wing has the Filipino touch. It was wonderful. The shops were also mostly shops of Filipino designers or Filipino inspired richness and class. It all felt sophisticated.

I was wearing an outfit that i absolutely adore, my gray high-waisted office skirt and striped blouse, I caught myself being nostalgic as i walked out to the mall's garden towards the main wing. I remembered that one day I shared with a special guy...

I remembered him so I called him. We laughed, we argued and we remembered. More importantly, we realized that the 6 weeks we shared together was special and made a lot of difference. Well, I realized this, he inspired it. Of course, now that we are thousands of miles apart, I really cant tell him all of these.

How talking to him made me feel like I can love again...
How laughing with him, made me miss love...
How arguing can give you happiness.

Thinking about him brings me to tears. I love him dearly. I wish him all the best in life.

To all of us who experience love and pain... isnt it the best?

We dated for 6 weeks. We talked earlier for 34 minutes. However, it was enough to make me feel.

At the same time, be reminded that, at those time span can also ruin your soul. Choose wisely. Commitment is nice but over-commitment can be deadly.

Dont be bitten by the Love Bug.

same thought, different times

i wish things turned out differently...
if only things were different...

different context.
different persons.
same thought.

Oh how i hate that line!