on excellence...

Good Day everyone!

I am sure that there's very few people who reads my blog. I am also amazed with people who constantly read blogs for the sake of reading and catching up on their friends' or people's lives. I still believe in the old fashion way of meeting personally with them, having coffee or spending time together at home and talking about what has been going on. However, despite my negative thoughts on blogging and my preference to actually talking, i blog because its the best way for an egotistic, competitive and scatterbrain like me get her thought in writing.

I have been working as an intern for one of the most, in my opinion, respected Senator in my country to date. He may very well be remembered for a very long time. Like many graduating college student, i had many dreams and ideals about being an intern and believe in what i can offer. However, this internship has opened my eyes again to skills and talents i have to hone before i graduate, apply and work for a cause.

I am constanly reminded that as a development worker (scientist :)), i do not just need a passion for service and "sustainability" but i also need intellect and leadership. This i believe i had entering college, but after seeing many people better than me, i slowed down. neigh, i stopped growing.

I got comfortable with being an assistant, second in command, doing what she is told to do and never really deciding on any important matter. I guess, all failures and mistakes i made, coursed my to staying inside my comfort zone. Gladly, a comment from someone waked me up from my sweet slumber. A comment from someone who i believe does not have the right to say so. I got mad, fought and won. However, the war is not yet over.

I have to prove to myself that I, can do it. part 1.

Practicum Experience

MY OJT for Sen. Pangilinan.

100 hours down. :)

Nothing to do?!

PASSION

is passion created or inherent?

i took History of Southeast Asia and one of the main thesis that we looked at is how a country's National Identity is created as oppose to how it is portrayed as inherent. Inherent in the sense that as if the country's "identity" existed since time immemorial.

so now that i am froth with procrastination, since it is supposed to be my summer vacation... i am trying to figure out if "passion" is inherent or created. if it is inherent, we should look for it. if it is not there then it does not exist and will never exist. if it is created, we can make ourselves feel it... maybe not now, but in time...

so is it created?

the definition of passion in the encarta dictionary is...

pas·sion

pas·sion [pásh’n]
n (plural pas·sions)
1. intense emotion: intense or overpowering emotion such as love, joy, hatred, or anger
Try and play it with a little more passion.

2. strong sexual desire: strong sexual desire and excitement

3. outburst of emotion: a sudden outburst of an emotion such as rage, hatred, or jealousy
He flew into a passion.

4. intense enthusiasm for something: a keen interest in a particular subject or activity
a passion for music

5. object of enthusiasm: the object of somebody’s intense interest or enthusiasm
Orchids are my passion.

Encarta ® World English Dictionary © & (P) 1998-2004 Microsoft Corporation. All rights reserved.

for the purposes of this discussion, im talking about the definition that is highlighted...

lets say passion for music.

a lot of people whether they can sing, play an instrument or not expresses their passion for music by creating music of spending ridiculous amount of time listening to music. these people, did they like music just like that or their experiences and their effort in finding the right type of music inspired their passion?

there is a girl i know who loves music because music gave her the strength to move on from past hurts. i on the other hand is thankful for movies and tv shows that showed me hope and just released inescapable truths that is bottling inside of me. so in that regard, i can say i am passionate more about movies than i am with music. but if i had a radio than a tv at my room, things maybe different right? since it is because i have my own tv at my room that allowed me to spend ridiculous amount of time watching tv...

same goes for those people who does not have cable tv, they get to appreciate local shows. or those who dont have a tv, they get to do nothing but study and get better at school.

hmm...

so is it inherent?

if i just spend more time on my computer doing my work as oppose to lying on my bed, waiting for inspiration or passion for what i need to do.. would it work the same way?

thats my real dilemma... i need to do stuff, i dont really want to do... as of this moment.